accepting the [process].

submitting to the process.

what is the process? to me, the process is the little buzz, the motor saying ‘do something do something’ (definitely my adhd in its fine display). the process is all of the little things I do in my daily life, big and small.

I have been trying to come to peace with the process. when I say peace I mean being able to sit with myself. sitting with myself has never been easy. trying to establish wants and needs has always been a struggle. what do I want? how do I want it? their needs over my needs? the thoughts rush in and out of my mind.

I truly believe (now at 25) that I am deserving of this creative, always on mind. a mind with infinite potential, drive, and empathy for others. a mind that is capable of establishing new rhythms and is able to see through life with a level of depth that is hard to understand and appreciate. my ‘normal’ is day is someones week - boy, what a thought.

in this next chapter, I believe it is time for me to put myself forward. to give myself [permission] to move forward. I have allowed time, the thoughts of others, and [fear] to rule my life. the world deserves to see my shine. I deserve to be seen. I deserve to create and share my vision; like I was always supposed to do.

so! I think this entry is one of commitment to myself. to go out, be shameless and fearless. to go embrace the process and accept that there has never been a better time to be myself.

I don’t hold any regrets in this life (that I can think of or really matter in the big picture). however, I believe that if I don’t go and commit to who I was born to be, I will lead a life that could’ve been more authentic.

the process is this. acceptance of me, my flaws, my power, and my truth. I am grateful for this. I am grateful for the opportunity to be myself and to give others the inspiration to lead a life committed to the process and authenticity.

thought + action,

Jesse